人 

可以好無情

無情得恐怖

點解要我面對咁嘅世界？

我好辛苦

可唔可以放我出去

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不拖手　或者都可堪稱熱戀
一拖手　比咳嗽更短
太快了　我未快樂過已失戀

想不起　被愛是如何溫暖
想不通　未夠資格使你心軟
但也知道心會這麼酸

理所當然我的錯　令你忽然離開
半路留下我(也是我錯麼)
為何這麼快看清楚　落得這結果

知我是個　無法討好的人
相戀一刻　只是我的僥倖
然而回頭　誠實去自問
我可討厭到　如此乞你憎＃

知我連眼淚　也絕不感人
只知怎麼考驗　你的操行
從前為何　纏在你附近＃

你不寂寞　便嫌我笨
難道我未夠好　未懂得熱吻
足夠令你憐憫　勾不起你的興奮

不擔心　自尊心這麼受損
只擔心　我將我看穿
我怕我　以後太習慣了失戀

更加速發覺　原本都不相襯
我未夠吸引　你未夠狠

到底這個故事　有沒有發生
何必受罪　心即使碎一碎
我仍能　繼續追
願那一刻共聚　懂得怎去相愛
愛人難　我肯學　定能愛下去

this says it all. can't be better to describe my miserable love life.
it's always been a joke.

never on the right track.

why are all my affairs come and go so quickly.
can I just have a normal relationship?
what's wrong with my life?
like I don't deserve to be loved and cherished?
after all these years gone to waste
I have finally found someone I have affection with
and what? turns out to be a major asshole who won't commit
 anything
and also end up knowing nothing about this person because seems like the whole thing is just a lie.
a fucking joke.
what the heck is wrong with me?
and why am I still putting so much thought and excuse for this shithole
I'm so tired
can I stop thinking that some kind of miracle is going to happen to me
can I just cut it off like I am a heartless person too?
now I feel like I have drilled myself into a hole and got stuck myself while no one would give a damn shit about me.
everything about law lawyer barrister courts court cases jury judge law firm legal related shit
I think of you
shut up brain
:(
i am so sick of myself being so naive and emotional over something that didn't even exist
fuck you
why did you intrude
why
give me a reason to believe.
to make me gone forever
please.

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