2010.

another year||2010
do you ever realise its actually quite meaningless to spend every year's last seconds counting numbers? or is it more meaningless when you set all these devotions for new year and you break it right away? the start of the year is me getting so intoxicated, flash-backs of me squatting in the toilet, throwing up next to a crowd of people, passing out in the lift, more puking in the taxi and finally losing my phone. what a great start right?
while i was moaning over my lost phone, i was thinking, maybe its not such a bad thing. first, i can get a new phone. second, i lost all my contacts and messages but maybe there should be someone i shouldn't find anymore, and old messages/ memories should be lost forever. there shall be a fresh start for everything, and it toughen up my other devotion that i have to myself.
these are the best reasons i can find to excuse myself...

another challenge of the new year||family
communication problems, future confusion, new stage adaptation.... ect. and now i have to deal with my family problems with other people. what the hell. i really don't wanna deal with it today. at least don't ruin my mood for tonight's big night.

change|| this is feeling hell
shall really have serious changes for this year. and the major first one is to avoid and prevent all embarrassing/ awkward/ damn ugly moments to happen again. the rest of the list, shall leave it to myself.


have a good night.
chao